SINKING

Nothing’s here to stay!

I wish I had known this as clearly and as well as I have known so many other things, perhaps much more clearer, all this while. Life is indeed moving fast. The smiles I see around me will soon be a thing of the past, cherished or simply forgotten. I’m racing past a lane where yesterday.. wait.. even a half hour ago seems like a distant memory etched on the walls of my heart. I never knew life could be this good, so complex and yet so simple. It’s amazing how we've managed to crawl our way through the toughest of times without even realizing the gravity of circumstances. I’m lost.. my eyes wet without reason. I want to cry today.. cry out in gratitude for all I’ve seen, for all the moments I have seen myself being torn and being made strong, for every second that served me little joys, unsteady laughter and a company I could have never imagined I could call my own someday.

Life moves on faster still as I write. Wish it could all just stop for a few hours. Wish I could see life flash by before me like a movie or a book; I could turn back when I felt the need to live it once more. I’m sinking but there's happiness within.. never found something so hard to explain.. I look around and see those I love falling, only to rise again.. to touch the skies.. shining brighter with every passing day. I’m grateful for being able to share this life with people who acknowledge the value of all we have and all we can possibly do. Life’s inconsistency irks me sometimes.. it is strange how we have to move on just when we find our bearings.. a never ending journey in search of that perfect place which sadly though, exists for a chosen few..or does it exist at all? As I travel through time with the rest of the world, I know I’m ready to face whatever tomorrow has to bring if I can miss, nay give up, all I have now. It’s incredible how I’ve found perfection this soon. Wish it could all just remain. Maybe I just don't want to move on to something better. Maybe the life I live now with all its pain and trials is all I ever wanted.. because when I put it all together, I’ve always managed to find a reason to smile.

I know at the end of the day that I have moved far away from where I was when it all began.